Monday, June 6, 2011

And so it begins...

I'm lying in bed, thinking about going to sleep, and I've started this blog because I want to make some big, huge, enormous, and scary changes in my life. I want to work out, regularly, and get healthy. It isn't about getting skinny, though that would be nice... It is about not feeling so horribly out of shape, so icky and gross, so huge. I don't know when it happened that I grew so much, but I'm waaaay too big. I know better. I'm smart and I know how things work. But somewhere along the way, I got lost and "rewarded" myself for feeling down. I rewarded myself with food and shopping. And neither has worked out well for me. The time for that is past, and I am making lots of changes. 

Here are some that I've done so far: Chris moved in (HUUUUUGE). I stopped leaving clothes on the bathroom floor--might not sound huge, but ask my mom. It is.-- I usually remember to rinse my plate. I pay much more attention to what I'm buying. I get more sleep. I started selling Mary Kay. We made it through Chris's dad dying. 

It's been quite the year. But in all of that, I've started eating like Chris (not much produce, too much bacon, too much cheese) and I have been entirely too sedentary.  Also, I've been sick a LOT, and I don't sleep well. Turns out, I have sleep apnea (thanks, dad's side of the family, I so needed to stop breathing while sleeping). I'm getting a CPAP soon, so hopefully that will help with the whole feeling tired all the DAMN TIME. And if I'm not as tired all the time, then maybe I'll do better with going to the gym. I've joined the new YMCA and I WILL get there regularly. I KNOW I feel better when I work out. I just have to remember that when I'm tired on my way home from work... 

A huge plus is that, as of today, I am going to visit my friend, Rosie, in Hawaii this summer. So that gives me a short-term goal. Hopefully I can make that work. I attempted to make the March of Dimes March for Babies 4 mile walk a mini-goal.... and I totally didn't get moving for that. I'm going with the theory that I don't have to run that experiment again... And I'm paying more to the Y than I did for the March... Fingers crossed.

I think I can go to sleep now. I feel better for having started SOMETHING. Writing may not burn many calories, but it does wonders for emotional health!! Which is just as important!!

6 comments:

  1. Great start Sarah! Funny how we both started a new blog tonight! I am in the same boat as you, that is why I have set this huge goal of a triathlon! :) Keep up the good work!

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  2. You go girlie.... proud of u! :)

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  3. you and be both girlie, I'll tell you what...we'll keep each other posted on t he whole getting healthier thing...Not only do I need to exercise i need to learn to cook right. With Robert headed back to sea, I refuse to go back to cooking out of a box! Will you do me a favor. I realize you'll be on the big island (we're moving to Oahu). Could you find out if the islands have farmers' markets? They have become a staple of our life... hugs Sheila

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  4. Yay, Twin! You're smart and beautiful and it sounds like you're really motivated to be heathy, which is fantastic. I gained quite a bit of weight after high school and it certainly wasn't easy to lose it. I'm still struggling to get my cholesterol in check and I need to work out way more than I do, but every change I make in my life makes me feel stronger, healthier, and happier to be me.

    I'll definitely be following along and cheering you on!

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  5. awesome blog Sarah! send me a FB message with your email address and I'll add you to my blog list (it's set to private) :D

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  6. It's a big deal just to admit all these things "out loud", good for you for going public and putting yourself out there. I know you will do great, but if you ever want tips, hints or ideas, I'm happy to share, having worked hard to take off 50 pounds from Oct 2009-Sept 2010 and now keeping it off. I don't say I "lost" the weight, because it didn't just disappear, I had to work really freaking hard to get that weight off, and work even harder to keep it off. A great website to start is myfitnesspal.com, it's helpful for picking a calorie target and tracking your daily food intake, which was where I first started. Good luck, you will do great! Just take things one day, one meal, one thing at a time.

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