It's only been a few months since my last post. That's about the last time I really did much towards health/weight loss. School started, and I've been sick. A lot. Not the drippy nose kind, but the crazy painful sinuses kind, and the exhaustion kind, and the stomach flu kind... And had a cough and nausea and lots of headaches. And did I mention the exhaustion? It was like I couldn't win. Cognitively, I wanted to go to the gym. Physically, I needed to go to the gym, but I just couldn't get there. I had also changed medication for my depression/anxiety, and the new stuff really isn't cutting it. I don't give a crap. About much at all. And I feel super ADD. Am so distractable and unfocused! And forgetful. Very forgetful. So I've sat.
After getting sick so much, I decided that it was past time to do SOMETHING. When the allergy office called about me not coming and getting my shots (can't get them when you're sick... I've been sick repeatedly), I said I was going to put it on hold since I haven't been healthy for more than a week and a half at a time since July. They pointed out that the Doc is also an immunologist. Ahhhhhh. Good point. So I made an appointment. I now have $85 in new meds and a followup appointment after I get some bloodwork done. Just have to get into the lab after 1 and before they close, so that a certain test that has to be done on live cells can be done... I still hate needles, so I'm working on getting up the nerve and the energy and the motivation to get to the lab. And did I mention that it's hard to give a crap about anything? Fun times. I've also made an appointment (finally....) to get a physical and do a meds review. Probably need to change to a different one... That actually works? That would be nice. I've been really "ah, what the hell" for the last couple months. Not so helpful...
So that brings me to the new year, starting out on a track that might (oh please???) lead to more energy, less illness, and more motivation to do... anything. I have wonderful and supportive friends who have offered to make standing dates at the Y to help me get there. I have 2 great docs who are working on trying to help me figure out what is going on. I have a mom who is as frustrated as I am about me being sick and tired all the time. I have a boyfriend who doesn't know what to do to help, but wants me to feel better. And I have me. I am smart and capable. I can navigate these obstacles, maybe take a nap when I get home and then go to the gym, and get through this crappy time. Oh, and get all my paperwork done in time... No stress!! While our apartment complex goes through the foreclosure process and Chris and I adjust to his working the night shift. Anyway, enough venting. I need to sleep and get through this cold so that I can make plans and implement them to make good lifestyle changes. And to get my butt to the lab... :) I hate getting blood drawn. Thank you if you read this much. You are important to me and I appreciate your support!!!
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